I was nervous about breastfeeding before I had Peyton. I heard so many stories about women not being successful at breastfeeding. I was also scared that I would be less of a mom if I didn’t breastfeed. While I was pregnant, I came across so many articles and forums women dogging out other women out because they couldn’t or wouldn’t breastfeed. I was nervous about being judged if I didn’t breastfeed.
The day after I had Peyton the milk started flowing like a river. I had to start pumping in the hospital. I thank God for that. But I knew at the same time if I couldn’t breastfeed, that wouldn’t make me less of a mom to Peyton.
I produced more milk than Peyton was consuming so I exclusively pumped. My Peyton’s pediatrician suggested that I feed her directly from the breast for the first 3 weeks and then start to give her the milk in the bottle. I literally felt like a cow. I would feed my daughter and then pump. I had to do this every 3 hours. I was milking around the clock.
I returned to back to work after 3 months and continued to pump. It was a lot of work but I’m happy I kept it up. I continued to pump until Peyton was 7 months. One day, I just couldn’t continue to pump anymore. I guess I was burned out. The milk was still coming full force but I just couldn’t do it anymore. So I proceeded to do what I could to dry it up. This may sound selfish but I felt like my mental health was at stake.
I may have stopped pumping but I had a wonderful stash of milk. Peyton wasn’t introduced to formula until she was 10 months old. And she did just fine.
I look at my breastfeeding story as a success for me. Everyone is different and I did the best I could. I encourage all mothers to do what’s best for them and baby. Every woman is different. Let’s not judge, but support each other to be the best moms we can be.
*This post is sponsored by Similac Sisterhood in Motherhood. Thoughts and opinions are my own.